Well there's my family. See my uncle there right on the left side down below? Yeah, he passed away a few months ago. About 2 weeks after the pic was taken. Well, sad I know but yeah. It happened. God loves him more. It's hard seeing your family members leave. As in, who would even want anyone they love to go away. Leaving you behind. That sucks. A lot. Seriously. People live, love, learn and die. It's a simple circle. One that we all must go through. I mean it's a tough world. The world itself might eat you alive. Literally. The fact that people leave; I just can't. So if you ever meet me in person and you might probably be thinking of leaving, don't introduce yourself. I've had enough of that. Honestly, I'm tired. Of everyone. So it's best if you leave me alone to die. Or else you yourself might get hurt. Yes, I have hurt tons of people. I can't afford to hurt another. I just can't. Please understand. You all mean the galaxy to me. The world's harsh. Never take it for granted.

Okay, honestly I'm pissed. It's not often you get a shot or a chance, right? It's just so messed up; life. Ugh. Disgusting, every single piece of it. I'm pissed off at the fact that society only looks at looks. You know, how annoying and depressing that is. To feel like you're not beautiful; you're not good enough. Well, I've had just about enough. I'm pissed at the fact that my "popular oh so gorgeous" """"friends"""" just think they're so much better than the rest of us in the gutter. I mean, you're pretty, I get it. Now shut up. No one likes a big push over. I know you have flawless looks, amazing body, hair like an angel, guys go gaga over you. YES I get it. Now, stop. Please stop reminding every single one of us that you are perfect. Yes, I know you're every guy's dream. And I know that I'm not even considered in that area. Fine, I give up on that. But the way you think every single guy has a thing for you; and yet you act like that. No chienne, you're not even close. So before you push everyone else from your "perfect" life, think. You have a brain right?

Cruelty towards the innocent

It is so unfair how others get more attention and more experiences than us. I mean, it's not like we're asking you to step down but think of it. Okay, just to make things clear to everybody about this situation. I'm a debater, I guess. This is a really honest post so, here goes. So apparently this year was supposed to be out big shot on getting lots of chances to expand our experiences but it's somehow unfair how everyone thinks there is only one debater in my whole batch ((which isn't me)) and I guess that our batch actually has many of em and it's tough for many of us to see these "popular" few who keep getting spots for competitions. I speak on behalf of everyone else. I mean, it's not like we dislike them or are jealous. It's just that, we think that everybody should get a chance. If these so called "popular" debaters keep getting all the spotlight. What about us, the others? How are we supposed to be better ? To improve ? If even we are not given a chance. I just want to plead to everyone that we aren't invisible therefore, don't treat us like it. We want a right too. So don't overrule ours. Please, we've had enough. We would love to have at least ONE chance. Please consider everyone else. Till next time.

                                                                                                                    Please, don't leave.

People can't see it. How others constantly think about them. All day all night. It's just so simple that some just can't see it pass by. See the tender, love and care that flies around. They just can't. 

It's tough for these minorities who have been trying their guts out to try and make the people they care about notice them. It doesn't matter if they're celebrities, neighbors, schoolmates, or even who pass by your door. Once someone actually thinks about you, you know those thoughts will never leave. 

It's true how people say "I'm still into you." It doesn't always mean that their in love. It just means that "Hey, this person means a damn lot to me and I never wanna let em go."

It IS hard to let go of this 'feeling' but what can humans do? We live, love, pray and die. If we don't know how to live, we probably know how to die. But we weren't all meant to die.. Alone.

I mean think about it, it would be hell on Earth if you had no one else in the world that you can count on, no one to lend a hand, or even to offer a shoulder to cry on. No one.

We don't all want to go through depression. Because, it's just a dark abyss that is very difficult to get out of. You're depressed, hurt, broken. It's not easy to heal. A crumpled paper may become straight when it's ironed, but it will always have those scars. Scars of pain, sadness, loneliness. 

Society doesn't care. No they don't. They're just there. Waiting for us to fall down. If we fall frontwards, they'll elbow you in the face. And if we fall backwards, they will never catch you.

It's hard to believe what we can't see. But once we do, we can never stop seeing it. It haunts your every move. 

Well, think about it. Life gets shorter and shorter everyday. Don't waste it all up being sad.

A few words you'd probably want to live by.

Battle Scars.

Have you ever felt lost, not having a place to call home, no family, no friends, nothing at all. You're just drifting into the social space we well know of today.
It's nothing personal though but sometimes, you just have to let it all go. Scream, if you must. Yell, if you will. Shout, if you have to. There's absolutely no boundaries to express yourself. Cutting yourself might be one medium to express your emotions, depression. It's not good but the feeling you get after is just so relieving and you probably feel so free. Well, bad things always seem good at first. But never at the end. Yeah, we know that. But as humans, we're bound to make mistakes. It's our nature for god sake. Nothing can change that. It's just the way we are. Especially, teenagers going through their stressing lives, whether at home or even a simple boarding school. Everyone's the same. It's just the way we live our lives, that is what makes us all different. It's not our fault that we want to live freely, no boundaries at all, seems like a total heaven right? Probably not. It's hard, yes it is. But it's also our choice. So choose right. If you don't, well learn from it and maybe, just maybe, you'll turn up as a winner anyways. So chin up, there is always someone there to lend a helping hand. Because you are never alone. Never.

A constant battle between remembering and forgetting....
Welcome to my world. A world of depression, sadness, and all around different. Join me in my journey to discover my own self. To find out who I am. Well, who I think I am. It's not all that bad, but not all that happy. You can never expect everything to be perfect forever, everything's only temporary. And there goes my story..

Let's all fight for our own freedom. A freedom to act, a freedom to choose, a freedom to learn, a freedom to speak and a freedom to live.